Thoughts

April 20, 2010

So, I should be typing my paper for Vocal Pedagogy right now….but I’m clearly not. Sadly, my roommates are doing work and one just mentioned how she’s so proud that we are so studious. Lol!

Did I correct her? …no.

Anywho, I don’t really know why I’m “blogging”…I just am. I hope to be as good of a blogger as Kelle Hampton. She’s legit. Every word and picture paints a great story that is her life and there’s always a lesson to be learned from reading it. Furthermore, after reading her blog(s), I tend to appreciate and realize how big our world is and how GREAT our GOD is, whether it be from her stories or hundreds of blog comments she gets.

Don’t worry. No pressure.

Well, I guess that’s it. I’m clearly procrastinating and talking about things that you don’t care to know.

P.S. My recital is on FRIDAY!!! I’m really hoping it goes well…and that I look pretty. 🙂

Here’s a parting gift. A song that’s been stuck in my head for the past few days. Hope you like it.

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So I realized how emotionally exhausting my previous blog was and so…I’m not gonna do that anymore. Feel honored Becca. Reasons:

  • I have too many friends that I care soooo much about.
  • I don’t have enough words to express how I really feel.
  • I don’t drink enough water in my day to balance out the amount of tears.
  • It takes too long
  • The ending of the series would probably be in December.

Anywho, lately….well it’s always been in my mind and heart, but even stronger, lately, KENYA has been calling my name. So keep me in your prayers about it. I’ve been praying and people there are offering me lots of prayer and hospitality while I’m there. Pretty much all I need is airfare and a renewed visa. Wow! Even that in and of itself is a blessing.

So, I have 1 week until my recital. 2 weeks till I’m done with finals . 3 weeks till I graduate and move away from all that I’ve been familiar with for the last 4 years.  But enough of that, cuz seriously, I don’t know how many more blogs I can mention that I’m leaving and get all sentimental! (BLAH! No one likes that Leslie…not even me.)

So on my drive home last night from watching GLEE with several amazing people, my ipod, being on shuffle, played an array of good songs from Sade to CHRISTyle (a Christian rap group from North Texas…I listen to them more for laughs rather than legit lyrics. Lol) Well, the last song (that I kept on repeat) was Finally Free by Nichole Nordeman. I’ve heard this song several times but it was like it really clicked about how truthful and beautiful the lyrics are.

“No chain is strong enough, no choice is wrong enough, no mountain high enough that He can’t climb…And if the Son has set us free, then we must be, free indeed. Let the chains fall away, starting today. Everything has changed, I’m finally free.”

How beautiful is that!! I literally listened to this song about 4 times and just worshipped (and cried) on the way home. Oh the joy that comes with being FREE  in Christ!!!

In my anguish I cried to the LORD,
       and he answered by setting me free. (Psalm 118:5)

Anywho, youtube never ceases to amaze me. So here’s a glorious clip of CHRISTyle performing “Bible in my Pocket”!!!

LOL!!

Ok, so I’m going to try to do something new these next weeks….or however long it’ll take. My blogs will be a bit different. I’m going to talk about 1 person a day and their impact on me while I’m hear. I know this might tap into some emotional and sentimental part of me, but it’s high time I do that, rather than waiting on graduation and exploding as I walk across the stage to get that Paper!

“CAN I JUST TELL YOU….”

So this one person in particular has a hold on my heart. If you can’t fully grasp how beautiful she is just by looking at her,

Beautiful Bec

then notice her smile, and if you still can’t grasp how radiant her being is after that, than have a conversation with her or better yet go get on a drink run to Sonic’s Happy Hour or Bush’s Happy Hour (you didn’t know they had those did you! …well, she did).

She starts off every “news” with “Can I just tell you…” and at the mention of those words I get excited to hear what she has to say, better yet the laugh that follows because she knows that I (and others) know that she says that phrase waaaaay too often. But it’s charming on her, nonetheless. 

When I ride with her we have an unspoken understanding that certain songs you just can’t talk over. Usually songs that capture our heart are followed with a sigh after the song ends. We also some songs you can just sit still and listen to. They MUST be danced to! Like Down by Jay Sean, that song never ceases to amaze me…or her for that matter.

When placed in situations in rehearsals, she is the first one to catch my glance and understand my heart and mind about anything, funny or annoying, just from one look. Speaking of rehearsals or music in general, her voice is so warm and piercing to the soul. The first time I heard her sing, barely knowing her, I cried. I’m not that emotional of a person, so she should be very proud to know that.

Her mannerisms and sayings (“Aaah, Pooo”) will always capture my heart and always put a smile on my face. Her friendship has blessed my life beyond comprehension. Through her I’ve come to know many amazing people, several of them being her family, which has now become mine.

B, if you’re reading this…CAN I JUST TELL YOU (lol) that you my dear are one of the sweetest things about life. My life specifically. Thank you for blessing me by just being you. By saying things I didn’t want to hear and things I needed to hear. Reaffirming me and encouraging me, mind, body, soul, and spirit. Your hugs have an undiscovered medicine that can heal any sickness and disease that I have. We’ve had so many great times and I’m absolutely positive that they won’t ever end. I’m so happy and proud of who I’ve seen God anoint and bless you to be. He has so many things in store for you and it brings joy to my heart to even think about. I know just thinking about how much I love and appreciate you causes my heart to explode, so God’s love for you is….WHOA!

I’m sorry that I wasn’t what you expected when I arrived late to OV Camp (lol), but I think that’s what God wanted this friendship to be. An unexpected surprise. Something we weren’t expecting that shocks us, excites us, brings joy to our hearts, and gives us goosebumps.

A picture speaks a thousand words. (Shout out to Allie W. for pic we're looking at and Allye G for taking this pic)

Good times.

I thank my God everytime I remember you. Seriously.

I LOVE YOU!

For those that were reading this, sorry for holding you so long. So enjoy this song that always makes us dance! I love you too!

Wow.

April 8, 2010

Ok, can I just saw that I haven’t been on this thing in for a loooooooooooong time. Thanks to the devoted 1 or 2 readers that tried to see if I finally updated in the past couple of days. Lol.

Well, I don’t really know where I left off with my life on this thing, but here are some updates.

  • I’m hopefully moving to a bigger city to get a bigger education and moving in with my bigger brother! I don’t think my happiness can get any bigger!
  • My sister is having her second child! I found this out by her giving her daughter, Alaiya, a big sister t-shirt for her 1st birthday! She’s so creative.
  • I am single. And I’m enjoying it. God is so faithful. And I’m so ready for what He has in store. (Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21)
  • I’m enjoying every second I have left at this beautiful campus with these beautiful people.

TANGENT: So the other day, I was driving from Target with some very sweet friends and I had the thought of how great God is. Not only because of his creations such as nature and where he’s brought me from, yadda yadda. But because of how He beautifully orchestrates my life and your life to intertwine with other’s lives. How He knows what each of has to offer to others and how out of all of the people on campus I only came in contact with an amazing several and they have built and broken and molded me into a person I’m proud to be. I still can’t wrap my mind around it. What a beautiful Father we have.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for the beautiful souls that you have given life and breath to, eyes to see your works, and ears to hear your voice to bless my life and help me along my journey and time on Earth. I worship you and praise you for the amazing timing you allow for relationships to bloom and wither. Thank you for the brain and heart that is filled with so many pleasant, silly, comforting, stretching, hilarious, strengthening memories. Father God, bless who ever is reading this. Let them be reminded of your love for them and my love for them. And as my days come to a close her amongst this blessed few, let my heart and their hearts continue to be comforted and realize that it’s only the beginning of a deeper and enriched friendship. I ask all these things and praise you for the past, present, and future in Jesus’ name.

Amen.